i came back to kuching with keen determination to do something, something worthy of my time and holidays. i wanted to:
do revision for various subjects, prepare for my microbiology and organic chemistry test, brush up on intermediate maths of which i'm at borderline, finish my tutorials and assignments and reports.
much to my own disappointment, i'm again, at this stage, tomoro i'm going back to uni d, and i cant cross out anything from my check list. this feeling really sucks.
other things i managed to accomplish that's oso within my checklist:
meet up with friends, but i cant make it in meeting EVERYONE, guess there'll always be next time?
attended my cousin John's wedding yesterday, i'm mesmerized. at the same time, i keep on pondering upon a few things.
how are we supposed to know who is the one when feelings are so undependable and eyes could be deceiving? God, how are You going to show us? what if we make mistakes? or what if we are too scared about making mistakes and eventually cost us to miss that someone?
i guess this is only random worries of a desperateez... well, how can i not be? when everyone's gotten hold on something while i still gaping for breath in the rocky waves... i feel like i m missing out. but i know where this can lead to. one experience is more than enough to ward me off. thinking that you are in love doesn't necessary mean that you really are in love or anything. and we are not talking about the one we love.
feelings change. over time. gradually. what's left after all that? seriously. it couldn't be true, things that the pagans said about love, being like fireworks, beautiful but short lived. i simply won accept that.
still dying to read: are you there God? its me margaret.
i'm finally accessing the internet with breeze and not under nosy supervision of cctv or strict librarians who will definitely tell us off if we are accessing anything un-academic.... because in school, my only opportunity to online is in the library, don't know why i cant detect the wireless in KRP's cafeteria... so getting a broadband soon...
saturday evening, i strolled the senai airport in solitary, hoping to see familiar faces every corner i turn, ended up disappointed, all faces who turned to me were blurry and hostile and complete strangers. all the way from my hostel to the airport, i keep on praying and praying. all the way from the airport in senai to kuching international airport im praying i'm praying...
the taxi arrived early. i called for ne to come by 4, since my flight is 6.50 in the evening. the cab arrived before 3.45. good thing i packed my stuffs early. then throughout the ride, i'm seriously scared, because the radio is tuned to a mandarin channel broadcasting porn novel (ppl reading porn novel for u in a taxi u are alone in and in a place u are not familiar with can seriously get on ppl's nerve, even in the strongest of ppl) but things turned out to be okay, i still don recognize the road, but at least i know it takes exactly 30 minutes to travel from UTM to Senai airport.
then, on the plane i board, it must be an old plane, because it keeps shaking and making eerie noises, before take off, during take off, in the air, before landing and after landing. weird noises throughout the flight. that's why for the first time, i did not undo the buckle of the safety belt until we landed safely. phew... close call, i m actually thinking about my regrets d u know (aka things like if i die tonight, what would i regret doing and not doing, and stuffs like that, u get the idea.)
i really sympathize muslims in the plane tat night. its the time for them to buka puasa, so they had to have their dinner on the plane. food on the plane is expensive and come in petite servings...
first thing i did after getting off the plane saturday night, eat kolo mee~ haha, maybe i m slightly too desperate, but who wouldn't?especially since u don get this flavour in the west penisular plus its expensive there (RM4.50 and above). dixon, i salute your kuching food post! great post! makes me want to crawl back here immediately!
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sunday was a busy day.
went for morning service in chin fu methodist. manage to spot quite a few new faces, we have one more taiwanese in our church~
a few things changed too. usually after the amen song, we will sit down and pray in silence. now there's a new agenda where we have to continue standing after the song and sing another one while the choir members will exit the church first. only after that we will sit down and pray.
met xu vin in church today. didn't managed to sit down and talk, but i am really thrilled to see her! she's still same old xu vin with that sweet and genuine smile~ welcome home xu vin!
after service i went for lunch with my family down at my auntie's laksa stall. she serves the best laksa in the world!!! no kidding!!! she always gives extra large servings when she sees us! haha, had us bloated in the end.
in the afternoon, i managed to meet up briefly with wee mee down at boulevard. brief updates and she complains about her woes taking medicine and the fact that she still has to stay in kuching while we get to fly. emily was supposed to meet us too, but boulevard was overly crowded tat day so she cant come.
chia yin joined us after that. we oso met mei wen and was she suprised to see us! same here mei wen~ happy to see u too!
wee mee went home shortly after that. chia and i continued to hang around for a while before taking off to saberkas to get her new handphone. then we decided to give wei thing a surprise and brought her out for dinner at pinoy ihaw ihaw at padungan.
we took pictures at pinoy ihaw ihaw cz the food's really nice and inexpensive and if u are a student they dont tax or service charge u! the boss and the ppl working there are awfully nice too~ i say, 4 big bright golden stars!
posting the pictures later i guess, chia cant transfer the photos for me just yet.
after that its already almost ten, and chia has to send me home first. but she's not very sure aabout the road plus its already quite late so we had a sleepover at my place!
haha~ it was fun having wei thing and chia yin over~ there's so much to share and talk about and we watched the last episode of fated to love u together, a half of the movie the first love of a millionaire. woke up around 9 this morning. extremely tired. today is definitely going to be a day-in. cant go out anymore.
uni life is stil a blurry phase for me, currently busy preparing for test 2, SCMC's tenth anniversary, pre-co-q registration, and assignments...
i am a super duper fan of d-campus! its a package where u only have to spend RM1.00 on phone calls and for the rest of the day, u get to talk for free within the digi network. plus, every digi number becomes your friends and family member, so u get to send sms for 1 cent only! smss to other networks, maxis, celcom etc etc is 6 cents each~ really great package, the only catch is that the packagge only works within campus, so if u are not in your uni, the package is not active...
sorry if it sounds like an advertisement, not promoting anything, just that now with this great deal, i get to stay in touch with all friends studying all over Malaysia!!! sorry if i didn't contact u if u are not a digi user... not boycotting anyone... get a digi number la!
i am now joining an evangelism group visiting students in their hostels every week. yesterday was my second trip and i m more accepting towards the whole service. the first time i went was an ordeal, because having to approach strangers at their rooms, and talking to them about faith and jesus, and most of them were not very open with this subject and just glared at us.... the feeling of ppl disliking and loathing u is really really stressful... but last night's trip to college 11 was a breeze, even though we din get the chance to talk further into the topic, we managed to build up relationship with ppl we visited and they are more accepting and welcoming. the bonus is, i met someone from Kuching~~~~ and we went to the same tuition center too~ even though i don't really recognize her and everything, but still~ its a big good and happy WOW~
Going back to Johor tomorrow morning!!!! (notice that i use "go back" instead of "go to"? comes as naturally, dono what happened to me.) i am feeling slightly excited, becz can meet my friends there, can finalize our Dare To Challenge program (well, almost anyway), can go mamak stall for maggi pattaya!!!!
but, i haven finish my assignmentssssss ( one due on monday, the other on friday) meaning die die die.... and i haven started my revision for my TITAS test.... die die die....
had been in kuching for one whole week, and i dedicated most of my time in.... SLEEPING!!! i slept like a pig! everyday wake up round noon. and sleep early some more! because ever since i started this semester, i have major sleep deprivation problem. the first few weeks is because of the orientation thingy. the last few weeks is because we have to prepare for exams, dare to challenge and assignments at the same time.
also spent a lot of time shopping. not the best thing to do but stil quite enjoying it when i get really good bargains. bought my shoes! finally... my last pair was really...
cannot find suitable lappie backpack. sad. thinking of getting the cover only and get another non lappie backpack i can use for classes. but dad say like that not worth it, because can use money spent on that two to buy a really good lappie backpack already. so, i ll continue hunting for my backpack in skudai. sze inn say she got hers for 15 bucks only!!!!
i haven trim my hair. i badly need one!!! long hair=extra stress=long time to wash=long time to dry=diff to brush=problem problem problem
but if i trim my hair, my hair will immediately go back to its NATURAL conditions... and i spent 250 bucks on my hair, and trimming now=wasting money, i need to let the money really value enough by letting my hair grow wild for a few more months. wait till the november holidays baru cut~ hahaha! but september a lot of cousins getting married... hmmm... dilemma...
cannot join mission trip in november~ *sob*
book my air tickets a bit too early, mom won let me change my tickets. from22nd of november till the 30 of november.
first QQcamp, now the mission trip. next one coming up is the i-connection camp. 11/5 till the 22nd of may. haha, good thing i haven book that one~
Tagged by Siu Yen Pin...
1.Where is your cell phone?
Here.
2. Your significant other?
Somewhere over the rainbow... yet to meet HIM in person.
3. Your hair?
Really long now, and re-bonded, even tho it looks like natural hair (as in v not straight and curly at the ends...)
4. Your mother?
Showering.
5. Your father?
Watching TV.
6. Your favorite thing?
Up till now, my diary?
7. Your dream last night?
Not sure if i had one last nite.
8. Your favorite drink?
I dono wat ppl call it in english, "dragon well tea"?, sugar cane juice
9. Your dream/goal?
Finding out my purpose of life in Christ, walking on the path of righteousness, live life to the fullest
10. The room you’re in?
My study, home, kuching, malaysia.
11. Your hobby?
Reading, watching tv, sleep, eating...
12. Your fear?
Spiders, straying away, doing something i shouldn't be doing, unable to meet expectations of ppl around me, chemistry, mathematics...
13. Where do you want to be in six years?
Happily serving in church and tackling a challenging job n balancing my life between service, family, and work, and finally realizing my purpose of life.
14. What you’re not?
A confident person living my thoughts.
15. Muffins?
Hmmm, if its not expensive and comes with a mug of hot chocolate... YUM YUM!
16. One of your wish list items?
Peace of mind.
17. Where you grew up?
Kuching.
18. The last thing you did?
Watched part one of 100 days with Mr arrogant.
19. What are you wearing?
T-shirt and pajamas pants.
20. Favorite gadget?
Lappie~
21. Your pets?
My aggressive but oh-so-cute puppy
22. Your computer?
Check my past entries please.
23. Your mood?
Not that good. No good dramas lately! and not yet finish my assignments! ARGH....
24. Missing someone?
Missing Cockroach like nuts~
25. Your car?
No i dont need one. i can take the bus! wahaha~
26. Something you’re not wearing?
Erm... Wat la?
27. Favourite store?
... don have.
28. Like someone?
Maksudnya suka seseorang ke? like hell yeah?! my mom, dad, bros, relatives, friends....
29. Your favourite colour?
White... and blue, and green, and purple, and pink, and black, and brown, and...
30. When is the last time you laughed?
hahahaha. i just did.
31. Last time you cried?
last week in micro lab, on sze inn's shoulders, with adik din watching some more....
and I tag: Ah Lin and Ah Jayne and Ah Chia n everyone who reads this!!!
I hear wedding bells ringing~
ding dong~
ding dong~
Let’s see, my cousin from my dad’s side is getting engaged this September,
my cousin from my mom’s side is getting married this October,
my cousin from my dad’s side is getting married this October,
niong moi’s relative (or is it sister? Sorry I cant remember, will update after asking niong moi) is getting married also this September,
my cousin from my dad’s side is getting married this December….
Alas had I really been away half that long? And I thought the extremely ferocious and aggressive puppy in my house was the only surprise.
Not that I don’t like surprises, or weddings. I like both, as a matter of fact. Both are charming and spices up our somehow mundane life. Just that, all of a sudden, and out of the blue, all the good and happy things are happening, makes me feel like, well, em, I don’t know, like am I missing something here?
Anyway wishing my relatives all the best, I am still a believer of true love and eternal partner and soul mate and marriage, even with the up scaling divorce rate, abortion rate, premarital sex rate….
I really wish that ppl wont rush into things and eventually find true love and live happily ever after.
True love waits~
back in kuching, and its sweet~ i miss kuching so so much~
they say its different, i tot they are exaggerating, but now tat i'm away in penisular for one and a half month and back in kuching again, the feeling's surreal, its really diff!
so wat had i been doing in school lately? 2 weeks before i'm back in kuching, i had been studying day and night for my pre-semester test. subjects i'm taking: statistics, intermediate mathematics, microbiology and organic chemistry.
there are exactly 8 chinese girls taking industrial biology in UTM, we are all living in the same block in the same hostel college. four at the ground floor, another four including me on the first floor.
two from east malaysia: one me, and another one from sibu~
the rest all from west malaysia: 2 from ipoh, one kulim, one batu pahat, one malacca and one more from kl.
guys? one chinese boy from kuching, and i dun really dun wan to talk too much about him at all...
okay, back to the test thingy, because all my course mates are very hardworking and smart, i have to woak extremely hard to keep up. we study so hard, harder that i did for my stpm...
okay next: random pictures of my uni...
life in in uni so far, well, i guess i can say its a mesmerizing experience. most of the time anyway. some days we are up, some other days we are down.
i'm taking industrial biology. y? because i dislike maths and simply despise chemistry. and what do you know, i am taking 2 maths (3 credits each) and organic chemistry this semester. my goodness... nothing can make me feel better. not when i have to go back to all those dipole moments, sp2, sp3 hybridization and benzene rings.
so that's the down part. people here are friendlier than i tot. west malaysia and east malaysia alike. i'm really happy to get to know so many diversed ppl from diff places. the feeling is surreal, there are really many many types of diff ppl in this world!
received a mms from my home tat day. they are having a new puppy!!!! black and white, equally cute. but, i'm scared tat the puppy won like me since i don get to know him since i don get to spend time with him.
joining the church community over here in skudai. the church i'm attending is also a methodist church, SCMC. rev Francis wan. the church community in SCMC is packed with ppl from sabah and sarawak, and even more from sibu.seriously need to master foochow, everyone's speaking tat!! maybe tat's the reason i'm not fitting in much.
going home on the 15th this month!!! i am happy. but i really want to join the QQ camp organised by the church in port dickson. sigh, maybe next year.
what else? i'm not joining any societies yet. been browsing but none seem suitable. went to: singing club, dance club, editorial board..... all mandarin based societies. dun get to move around tat freely, since my seniors and friends here don have their own transport either. thats the inconvenient part.
plenty of crushes. and then plenty of de-crushes oso. when u get to know ppl, u don like them in tat way half as much anymore, don u think so?
having organic quiz next tuesday. statistics test on thursday or friday, organic test on saturday. llife... i'm depressed.
i'll be moving forward.
Tadaima~
time flies, its my third week in UTM Johor, and it had been like, my my, hell....
so many things to say, but really don't know how to start... it seems like ages, yet its only my third week here... the feeling is mutual, i'm experiencing far more emotions and pressure than i had ever experienced, such diversity and such changes. its kinda hard on me at first, but i'm slowly accepting it and trying my best to blend in.
okay, bout my university, its called UTM, Universiti teknologi malaysia, famous for being an engineering university. its kinda weird tat i'm actually studying biology in such a technical school but i'll just skip tat. there are around 1000 foreign students in UTM pursuing various courses ( we have one taking biology, her name is Marvel from turkey)
the university is HUGE... we have around 17 colleges (if i'm not mistaken), a college is like a housing area, with plenty of hostel blocks, an information center cum office, their own grocery srore, restaurants, sports facilities, etc etc...
my college is called Kolej rahman Putra, one of the oldest colleges, but also one of the colleges nearest to the academic center.
hmmm, i don ve my laptop with me yet, and now i'm updating my blog in the bio informatics center inside the academic center. its a rare opportunity that i'm so free. uni life is hectic. will update asap, and upload photos too~
my room mate is a christian from Kuching~
ciao!
In memories of my first puppy~
you had been angelic and a lot of fun.
we love u like nuts.
too bad that you are leaving us so early.
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We were having a small gathering with close friends from Green Road on Wednesday, only those who were free anyway, everyone had been so busy. Chia and Deena decided to go to Fen Xiang at stapok for dinner. I am not familiar with that area, but I tagged along anyway. Then the really appalling thing happened… Fen Xiang is closed every Wednesday~~ Chia was really looking forward to dine there, me too, because we heard so many talking bout how scenic that place was.
The three of us turned up with three cars, and we were like laughing at each other: so many cars, so little people. The place is closed, what are we doing, so worked up for nothing.
So we decided to go somewhere else, ISABELLA. For a drink and something light. So we went back to our cars. I started the engine. It wouldn’t start. Then the alarm starts ringing. I quickly leap off the car, press my remote to stop the alarm. Climbed back in the car, try starting the engine again. Same thing happened. Leap off. Climbed in. then I realize this is bad. Called my dad. Oh oh, battery’s dead….
So so sad. This is the first time something like this happened to me, and I’m really really clueless bout what to do next. Turned out that the solution is pretty simple. U just need to borrow some electric from another car to start yours…
So in the end, tired an exhausted, we spent our night-out at Isabella’s. which was pretty packed that night. The noise is intimidating!! Wow~ its scary almost. But the dining area is really great, makes me feel like home immediately with all the veils and pillows~
I am excited! I am nervous! I am thrilled! I am nervous! I am nervous!
Ah~ I really don’t know what to expect…
I think I am ready. Everyone’s leaving, well most anyway. My friends, when will we be seeing each other again? Even if we still get to meet in the future, I’m not sure we will be as fond of each other as we are now. My dear friends, you are all indeed my treasures, who makes my life many many times worthy of cherishing! I salute you, friends~
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I am leaving tomorrow morning, 8.45am to Johor, UTM. I don’t know what I will be facing and I really don’t know what to expect. I have never been to Johor, and this makes the whole thing more exciting and wrench-wrecking and scary and etc. etc. etc…
Johor~ here I come!!! ( with sue~)
I am not going to bring my laptop, so I really don’t know when can I update my blog. So till then, ta-da~
finally a cloudy evening. the sun had been blazing for days, i guess it finally realizes that it needs a break too. i don't know if its me or what, the temperature despite the weather did not drop a bit. the sky is gray, but i'm still feeling steamy and hot inside the house. must be because the earth absorbed far too much heat. heat is still radiating in the air.
one thing i am scared of, changes. people, places, things, thoughts, perspectives. i am horrified. won it be great things stay the same forever. the most scary thing is when u realize that things around you are changed one day, and finally come to realize that you are the one who changed the most.
someday, things will be okay again. and we will be carefree. restricted in neither emotions nor actions. we can set ourselves free. i wonder how that feels like? the emotional burden, is getting heavier every single day. when i am trying to hide my true self, will i eventually lost my true self?
practice, and then u grow. we are all like that. what is more important? pleasing thyself? pleasing others? pleasing God? the answer is clear, yet the decision seems so difficult. i heard people saying that, without suffering, there would not be compassion. so without choices, there would not be good decisions?
i really don't like it, having to handle many many difficult things in very very limited time. and people ( parents) keep nagging at your back telling u this telling u tat, because they are worried that u will miss out this one mis out that one... i need a break.
still on my to-do list:
- fill in forms
- medical check-up ( scheduled tomorrow)
- open CIMB bank account (tomorrow morning oso)
- pay school fees via CIMBclicks
- certify offer letter(s) (tuesday)
- taking passport-sized photos
- ptptn loan
- getting my supplies
today she was talking about following Jesus. she started by asking, how many of u have followed Jesus for more than 25 years? a few shot their hands up.
then she asked, less than 10 years? no one put their hands up this time.
she did not come to my category. but, even if she does, will i raise my hand?
that question lingers, because i have no answer. i am a christian, if your definition of one is someone who goes to the church every sunday, receives the holy communion, pray before meals... yeah i am one. but, am i really one to God?
the pastor's wife, her name is liew chi ming. she then went on, categorizing christians she knew.
- those who knows much bout God and sees His grace as something easy to come by
- those who sees God's grace as something valuable and worth sacrificing for
those in the second category, they lead a different life after receiving God's abundant and precious grace. they change, so as to reply God's grace, because they want to, because God's grace is tat great.
sometimes we refuse to think of all these, ignoring the seriousness. this world ain't going to last forever. and our period on earth is short. think, where do u want to go, and constantly remind yourself, God's grace, and the sweetness of eternity in Christ.
okay, IPTA admission result was out on wednesday! thanks to soonkiong (i checked via the link in your blog) so i get to check in the middle of the night.....
after making a few mistakes in typing the angka giliran, trembling all the way, i peeked through slits of my almost squeezed closed eyes....
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UTM.
This is one of my experimental choices!!!! I don't even know what's the course about...
after the shock, i woke my parents up, booked plane tickets (yes in the middle of the night), practically called up everyone i know...
Su Chern
Sia Yuen
Wei thing
Chia Yin
Jayne (did i call jayne or did jayne call me?)
Chee Yuan
Wee Mee
these were the only ppl who picked up my call in the middle of the night! so i know who to call in emergencies next time~
then it suddenly hit me, NO ONE i know is going to UTM!!!!!
everyone seems to be heading to UKM, UPM, USM, UMS....
what should i do? what should i do???? i m positive this is what that cause my insomnia... slept round four thirty and woke up before seven~
then i heard tat Sue's heading to UTM as well!!!! YEAH!!! YIPEE!!! finally~
so now, i m in the midst of preparations, clothing, documents, more documents, and mre documents....
what is kain labuh?
te dressing code is so strict, making uni life sounds like secondary school, where the students are not allowed to dye their hair, accessorize, wear clothes they like... ( are we allowed to wear jeans? ) they might as well gave us uniforms! just to make things easier...
even tho i m not contended in many ways, i'm actually looking forward to the whole thing~ uni life should be a blast! hope i get to enjoy while it lasts!
bought my laptop on saturday! i am... Happy! not really satisfied... but HAPPY!
since i'm not that kind of techno ppl who understands or appreciates technology and everything, i guess that my purchase was a great deal actually, cheap! below my budget, so happy to be saving money!
HP COMPAQ PRESARIO C770
RM 1799 ( the price makes it great)
CORE DUO 1.73GHZ
1GB DDR2 RAM
160GB HARDDISK
DVD BURNER
15" WIDE SCREEN ( really, as in, REALLY big and bulky!!! don get me wrong, i don think its an advantage. but on the bright side, it kinda serve my drama addiction well...)
BRIGHTVIEW
WIFI, WEBCAM (no bluetooth)
56K MODEM & NIC
5 IN 1 CARD READER
3 X USB 2.0
INTEGRATED X 3100
384MB DISPLAY
WEIGHT: 2.7KG ( i'm telling you, i'm going to come back from uni one muscular girl, with extremely sculpted arms~ no kidding, its HEAVY!)
the website says:
The following products are no longer for sale:
» Compaq Presario C769TU Notebook PC (KT187PA)
» Compaq Presario C770TU Notebook PC (KT188PA)
that's the reason for the price??
okay, i'll continue. last day of work was friday. but just found out that i stil have to go back to school on monday, to hand-over and stuffs... and so many mistakes in the students' marks!!! have to go back to change their marks.... so hopefully, monday really IS my last day...
after school on friday, we are supposedly celebrating chia and wei thing's birthday in advance with niong moi, deena and choon fung them. but twist and turn and this and that and ^%&^*& many many times it didn't work out.... so sad. wanted to celebrate for them. so we make things simple, we got them a cake and a card and thats about all. ( i made my own card!!! i m getting artsy~)
there's a talk on education loan (which is one of the main reason we are calling off the celebration) down at inti college. so wei thing me and chia quickly grab dinner at the seafood restaurant near mr chin's maths tuition there. ( the food's superb)
the talk was organised by carlsberg. so i was thinking, is this their new technique? rationalising the connection between alcoholic drinks and students?
everyone's talking bout how PTPTN is actually a taxing loan, with the sky rising interest and stuffs. a teacher complained that the amount of his debt actually increased after paying for one year due to the interest rate. wow~
by the way, sue was tat u i saw that day in inti? i din stay till the end. did u get the free gift? they serve alcohol in the end isit?
i have so mucch to update!!! but lets take it slow. so first things first.
i'm officially... a penggangur!!! JOBLESS!!! yeah! had been working since december last year, so so so happy i can finally do things i want instead ( i know i have plenty of holidays as a teacher, but being job-free and being on holiday is totally different)
last week was my last week in school, and for someone like me, who procrastinates her work from time to time, it was definitely a lot like hell. a lot of work that i push back since day one, and a lot current stuffs.... so the workload had like doubled? tripled? i'm sure it was more than that...
from monday i had started to plan everything out. money stuffs inluding fees and such, management stuffs: report cards, discipline cards, record book...., project stuffs: sejarah kerja kursus...
getting those done, and keying in the recent exam's marks....
back home i have no time to waste either. i need to prepare presents for my students. i want to get them something so as a last remembrance of me and stuffs. but i m poor, so i decided to make them bookmrks. i downloaded beautiful quotes online. type them out nicely. buy fancy paper, do designs on the bookmarks, laminate them... took me one week to make 200 for my students! but the result was satisfying.
my last day was stil blurry to me actually. things come and go, in fast motion, so fast, that i din take in much and din have to time to let everything sink in.
what i remembered was i received flowers! for the first time in my life!!! roses!!! and i realise that i really do like flowers. so those ppl were not exaggerating in the dramas, you can really melt us with flowers. me anyway.
students:best of luck have a great life~ i m really looking forward to hearing from u all in the future!
i'm waiting, constantly on standby, for something great to happen, nothing did really happen, sometimes i feel like giving up already, but the thought of how good it will be, i know, i cant possibly give up something that bears such a sweet fruit.
of course, what i am waiting for, is not just One thing, its a combination of all kinds of things that i want, and really hope for, spiritually, mentally, physically...
waiting for things to happen, or waiting for life to end. its simply like that, right? or is it?
when one has the courage to dwell in these possibilities and uncertainties, they will definitely be surprised. as tough or difficult as it may seem, its actually simple facts. believing and not believing. thats all. the rest is done. we have the easier and simpler parts.
life is like a holiday. this is not the place u originated, nor is it the place u will be staying. u are on a holiday. u will go back home one day. so, its really unnecessary to bring all that luggage. everything u ever wanted is not as precious as what u have up in your real home.
ah, how many have the courage? to give up all materials on earth. even though we know that giving these up makes us richer.
my current addictions: meaning dramas i m catching~
1. k-drama: snow white
monday till sunday, 12.30-1.30pm, saturday 1.00-2.00pm,
channel: xingkong\typical comedy bout how ugly betty become a princess, and snow white ended up with prince charming's little brother~
2. j-drama: zettai kareshi aka absolute boyfriend
channel: www.mysoju.com
the whole plot and concept is slightly disturbing, as in marally. watch it and u'll understand. i definitely think that the drama is better than the anime~
3. last scandal (k-drama)
cant watch via veoh tv, dono y they block malaysia users... so have to wait patiently for users of youtube to upload it... at the moment, only up to ep 2
featuring veteran actors and actresses, u don get this everyday, both the male and female leads are almost 40???
anxieties: ( which happens to be things that i anticipated much for)
1. IPTA admission!!! when will the result be out??? dying to know where i can go
2. getting my laptop, Hp? Acer? Toshiba?
3. resigning....
i did not update my blog lately because i'm all so caught up with....
TREE OF HEAVEN~
yup, another korean/japanese soap. for a long long time, i did not indulge in any tragic soaps, nothing half as sad after Autumn in My Heart and Stairway to Heaven, and when i finally sit down for one, my goodness.... i really forgot how sad stories are, its different from all those funny, light stuffs, and made me realise, wow, now that's real drama...
tree of heaven is a total howler... its a short drama, ten episodes, but it had me bawling my eyes out from the very first episode till the last one, until my whole body system is upset and became all sentimental and sappy.... i cried when they were happy, cried when they were sad, all scenes, cheerful, lively or moody and gray, i cried, like a crazy person...
i cant help having scenes of the story playing in my head again and again so i decided to write it down.
quotes from the story i'll never forget:
"if your feet isn't cold, your heart will be"
it means, because your heart is getting cold, to prevent it from getting colder, you make other parts of your body cold, so that your heart is, under comparison, warm.
the male lead was a lonely boy named yoon suh who lost his mother in his childhood, so he felt that his heart is cold because no one cared about him anymore. he had a habit of walking barefoot in the snow (please ignore the fact that he might get frostbite, its only a drama) so that his heart won't get cold.
he later fall in love with her stepsister Hana who understands his pain and thought that she can warm his heart, but due to misfortunes that landed them when they fall under care of Hana's greedy aunt, they were separated and did not meet each other until it was too late.
its a typical korean sad sonata but still, its a heart wrenching piece that's really watch worthy, and if u are a fan of stairway to heaven, this is a must-watch, the male and femae leads in this story are actually the actors from stairway to heaven. yoonsuh was the younger version of the stepbrother, and hana was the young version of the female lead.
why i'm so into this soap:
sad stories have their way getting into the most sensitive part in your heart and eats u inside out, u feel so painful, but its addictive, so u cant stop at all...
the female lead, Hana, by Park Shin Hye, who was only 15 then, did such a great job~ she was a really convincing actress and i really feel her, her pain, her joy, her misery... she is someone (her character) i would want to become, helping ppl open up, giving ppl second chances, things which i have so many opportunities to do but of which i let slip.
mafia! gangsters are always cool, despite the bad things they did, all those men, dressed in black, doing things in unison, for a common goal, for a leader they honor (its just diff from MIB)
hope u like this drama too~
