Reflection

i really don't like it, having to handle many many difficult things in very very limited time. and people ( parents) keep nagging at your back telling u this telling u tat, because they are worried that u will miss out this one mis out that one... i need a break.

still on my to-do list:

1. fill in forms
2. medical check-up ( scheduled tomorrow)
3. open CIMB bank account (tomorrow morning oso)
   
4. pay school fees via CIMBclicks
   
5. certify offer letter(s) (tuesday)
   
6. taking passport-sized photos
7. ptptn loan
8. getting my supplies

my head was buzzing with all these stuffs, even when i sit down inside the church a few hours ago just now. when the pastor's wife started preaching, my mind was still drifting.

today she was talking about following Jesus. she started by asking, how many of u have followed Jesus for more than 25 years? a few shot their hands up.

then she asked, less than 10 years? no one put their hands up this time.

she did not come to my category. but, even if she does, will i raise my hand?

that question lingers, because i have no answer. i am a christian, if your definition of one is someone who goes to the church every sunday, receives the holy communion, pray before meals... yeah i am one. but, am i really one to God?

the pastor's wife, her name is liew chi ming. she then went on, categorizing christians she knew.

1. those who knows much bout God and sees His grace as something easy to come by
2. those who sees God's grace as something valuable and worth sacrificing for

i guess i fall into the first category, as much as i hate to admit it. i took His grace for granted from time to time, knowing that He is always forgiving and loving. that makes me feel okay with myself when i did not do what God wants, and that makes me unwilling to change my ways.

those in the second category, they lead a different life after receiving God's abundant and precious grace. they change, so as to reply God's grace, because they want to, because God's grace is tat great.

sometimes we refuse to think of all these, ignoring the seriousness. this world ain't going to last forever. and our period on earth is short. think, where do u want to go, and constantly remind yourself, God's grace, and the sweetness of eternity in Christ.