school started last week, had been slightly more packed than the last few semesters, i am still coping though, amazing enough. there are plenty of familiar faces in this batch's juniors this time, really surprising but really happy to see them all, shin li, grace, ah mah, and some of my bro's ex-classmates...
CLC is different this year, a lot more input and definitely more output too, God bless each and every one of us in His most delicate ways~ i feel blessed. may God continue to empower and strengthen us in doing what He wants us to do.
i am going to work on a special project, it's called the project x, the details are not finalised yet, but i am getting more and more excited knowing that it is going to work great. just wait and see!
i am so into my new hostel block and floor mates! julie, stella, hui jiunn, grace, winnie and zinc! it's like one happy family, i am indeed blessed, i will learn to appreciate them more, definitely i will. campus life is made so great with their presence. cherish~
this semester, i am seeing positive changes, finally, i think i am clued-in to my whole course and thinking more about what i am studying and see myself applying the things i learn and liking them. knowing that God id the beholder and that i am studying His creations made the whole ride somehow clearer. Hopefully, God will use me in this specific sector to bless more people.
back in UTM, finally, still in daze...
but really really happy, so many juniors!
i'm going back to utm soon, the feeling is mutual, but life back at home is far too carefree and no-hassle that i am starting to feel useless, since everything's done and settled for me, except for a few minor chores like doing the dishes or sending my brother to tuition and stuffs, i am slacking off big time.
i might have gained some weight, the scale's lips are sealed but i am sure that excessive fatty layers are building up inside, all i can do is keep my fingers crossed... i am picturing: cholesterol, high bp, diabetes, coronary diseases, obesity...
what have i accomplised so far this holiday?
- at least i joined a mission trip, was the best two weeks of my entire holiday
- taken in a whole year's worth of movies and drama...
- catching up with friends i haven contacted for ages: chia, moi, weithing, weemee, annkee, lin, suchern, jayne, cj...
- sleep...
- lose a bit of the uneven discoloration of my arms
- spent plenty of quality time with mom, dad, daniel and kelvin
- sharpening my cooking skills... (my baking skills deteriorated!!!! i made a disastrous cake today!!! inedible...)
there were more constructive ideas i was counting on to pin up on my accomplishment list by the end of the holidays but i was in vain... it was more difficult to discipline myself than i thought...
sad case...
if i can do all these
practise singing so that my voice will be suprp for the upcoming choir co-q!
they won kick me out when they realize i cant sing rite? i mean, they already accepted my application and so this is final rite?
becoming a guitar pro~
i know very well that i am far from being musically-gifted but one can dream...
learning to bake, as in baking edible stuffs...
it shouldn't be that hard, at least it doesnt look that hard.writing. penning down my life story has always been a far-fetch dream...
but i wanted to do so, producing something far more serious and sophisticated than my blog posts...
crocheting would be nice too...
ah, all the nice stuffs i can make, maybe i can even make some money with it....
or at least mastering cross-stitching.... it's only like the most basic feminine thing...
but alas... all i can do is dream..
the lack of consistency in my postings are due to several factors:
- i woke up too late in the mornings... (sometimes i woke up by noon)... zzzzzzz........
- i was far too lazy to do anything outside watching movie and going out with friends and best buds
- i don feel like writing sometimes
- life's far too boring
- was busy eating and reading
therefore, this blog post will be all about the movies i watched in the past few days
- vicky, cristina, barcelona
- the prince and i
- poison ivy:the secret society
- angels and demons
- he's just not that into you
- marley and me
- slumdog millionaire
- shopaholic
- high school musical 3
- starsky and hutch
- bride wars
- the pink panther 2
- inkheart
- bedtime stories
- ghost rider
- ten things i hate about you
- made of honour
- jumper
- etc
- etc
- etc
ish...
major setback no.1:
removed my sound device!!! again!!! ugh... since i'm all clueless about computers and all its accessories, i ll have to wait till school reopens to get my lappie fixed and watch movies... what am i supposed to do in the mean time? sigh...
major setback no. 2:
zinc, i am tagged by this star again!!! the "the window you are using is not of a geenuine copyright....".... argh....
major setback no.3:
streamyx is giving me a real headache... facing low connectivity and no connectivity at all from time to time... i am now surfing using an unauthorized wifi service...
i am sad...
i want to complain!!!!!!!
went to pizza hut yesterday with my bro. at the take-away counter, we were introduced to this new promotion pizza, 3 regular pizza for 36.75, including tax and stuffs. the point is, on the counter it is written, READY IN 14 mins. so we were waiting and it's like, more than twentyy minutes already. so we asked the waitress. she was like, oh, we cant guarantee it's ready in 14 minutes...
the whole, fast pizza idea, is real scam...
anyway, i dont really recommend the viva pizzas....
i am struggling to finish this book -------> SPY by giddens
got this book from my guardian angel maan tarng during our mission trip. maan tarng, i know it's very nice of you to give me something u love so much, but, it's, a really really long trip to the end.... haha, but i'm at 3/4 of the book, it's really funny ( the way the writer tells the story) and thrilling and terrifying at the same time, like how i told you the other day.
anyway, i will try my best, who knows, maybe i ll be a bigger fan than you in the end?
Wir Sind Helden 's Nur Ein Wort
Ich sehe, dass du denkst
Ich denke, dass du fühlst
Ich fühle, dass du willst
Aber ich hör dich nicht, ich
Hab mir ein Wörterbuch geliehen
Dir A bis Z ins Ohr geschrien
Ich stapel tausend wirre Worte auf
Die dich am Ärmel ziehen
Und wo du hingehen willst
Ich häng an deinen Beinen
Wenn du schon auf den Mund fallen musst
Warum dann nicht auf meinen
Oh bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein
Bitte bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein
Bitte bitte gib mir nur ein Wort
Es ist verrückt, wie schön du schweigst
Wie du dein hübsches Köpfchen neigst
Und so der ganzen lauten Welt und mir
Die kalte Schulter zeigst
Dein Schweigen ist dein Zelt
Du stellst es mitten in die Welt
Spannst die Schnüre und staunst
Stumm wenn
Nachts ein Mädchen drüber fällt
Zu deinen Füssen red ich mich
Um Kopf und Kragen
Ich will in deine tiefen Wasser
Große Wellen schlagen
Oh bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein
Bitte bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein
Bitte bitte gib mir nur ein Wort
In meinem Blut werfen
Die Endorphine Blasen
Wenn hinter deinen stillen
Hasenaugen die Gedanken rasen
Oh bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein
Bitte bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein Oh
Bitte gib mir nur ein
Bitte bitte gib mir nur ein Wort
and
Le Festin- Camille (Ratatouille Soundtrack)
(click on the picture to follow the link to the song)
Song: Le Festin
Artist: Camille
Album: Ratatouille Original Movie Soundtrack
MANY THANKS to twindodger and LiveJournal for the updated lyrics and translations
French lyrics:
Les rêves des amoureux sont comm'(e) le bon vin
Ils donn(ent) de la joie ou bien du chagrin
Affaibli par la faim je suis malheureux
Volant en chemin tout ce que je peux
Car rien n'est gratuit dans la vie
L'espoir est un plat bien trop vite consommé
A sauter les repas je suis habitué
Un voleur solitaire est triste à nourrir
A un jeu si amer je n'peux réussir
Car rien n'est gratuit dans...
La vie... Jamais on ne me dira
Que la course aux étoiles; ça n'est pas pour moi
Laissez moi vous émerveiller et prendre mon en vol
Nous allons en fin nous régaler
La fêt(e) va enfin commencer
Sortez les bouteilles; finis les ennuis
Je dresse la table, de ma nouvell(e) vie
Je suis heureux à l'idée de ce nouveau destin
Une vie à me cacher et puis libre enfin
Le festin est sur mon chemin
Une vie à me cacher et puis libre enfin
Le festin est sur mon chemin
English lyrics:
Dreams are to lovers as wine is to friends
Carried through lifetimes, (and) spilled now and then
I am driven by hunger, so saddened to be
Thieving in darkness; I know you're not pleased
But nothing worth eating is free
My hope is a banquet impatiently downed
Impossibly full, now I'll probably drown
Many thieves' lives are lonely with one mouth to feed
If giving means taking, I'll never succeed
For nothing worth stealing is...
Free at last; won't be undersold
Surviving isn't living; won't eat what I'm told
Let me free, I'll astonish you; I'm planning to fly
I won't let this party just pass me by
The banquet is now underway, so...
Bring out the bottles; a new tale has spun
In clearing this table, my new life's begun
I am nervous, excited; (oh) just read the marquee!
A lifetime of hiding; I'm suddenly free!
My dinner is waiting for me
A lifetime of hiding; I'm suddenly free!
My dinner is waiting for me
went to chia's house for movies yesterday. the rest all went back to school for the STPM anugerah thingy, namely: weithing, weemee, syieluing, steph, lynn.... they are hitting the movies right after that, so chia n i had our own, private movie escape in chia's room instead!
we were watching... SISTERHOOD OF THE TRAVELLING PANTS 2!!!!! great movie!!! even though i watched it before, but movies like this means more when u watch it with your own sisters~ haha! chia did not watch the first movie before, so i filled her in with the details while she had her lunch.
bdw, chia said the laksa from zhuan yuan lou in bdc is superb! 4 prawns, only for 3.50!!! i have to try it for myself! ( making mental note.........)
anyway, back to the movie, it was a blast! we love it! okay, i love it more, chia only like the outfits! alexis bledel starring lena, is like this extreme iconic classy teenager and we were heads over heels over her clothes, attitude, posture, blah blah blah... she was way cool man.
anyway, we came up with a conclusion that she managed to looked like that because:
- SHE IS POTRAYING A RICH CHARACTER IN THE MOVIE!!!!
who cant be pretty if they have the money to dress up?
haha, so it's back to the basis... pure heart, pretty soul, God-fearing heart... He will bless us in different ways....
i don't know when was the last time i dropped by the spring, haha, but everything's still the same. chia yin and wei thing oso the same! haha!
it was a at-the-spur-of-the-moment kind of thingy yesterday, and i even forgot that we are having having family dinner that night... (bak chang day bah...) so when chia called and asked if i wan to join her and weithing for the movies i agreed immediately! haha, we planned to watch angels and demons... but after that, due to my curfew, they have to hold it for me. sigh...
i was at the school yesterday and the people changed a lot. no more familiar faces except for a few teachers and prefects who seemed to be always around. then, when i was on my way out, i saw this student of mine whom i used to give tuition... sob sob, i missed them buckets!!!! wail..... i was really overjoyed when he recognized me and waved back! sigh... i felt like a mother...
yesterday was my first time having doughnuts from big apple. haha, it was fineeeeeeeeeeee~
most importantly, haha was that i spent quality time with you guys: weithing n chia~
dearest wee mee,
haha, yesterday was my second experience with coffee, and I managed to sleep well! Haha, I guess either that I am sensitive to only white coffee and not cappuccino or that day my account of restlessness was totally scam, out of the stress from exams. too bad i din manage to take the picture of the coffee... sigh...
i really enjoyed your companion yesterday. time flies, but we were still the same, in terms of our friendship. other things changed though. you are going to be a doctor and haha a bride and maybe a few more years and i wonder if you would be evn more busy by then?
i am deciding what to do with my life at the moment and sometimes i feel like i just want to follow the flow, much simpler but a much less faithful life. i have no idea what God would want to do with me but there's oso nothing i can do about it.
haha, your maturity shows. you are nurturing the personalities and traits of a good doctor! Praise the Lord! continue to have faith in Him, He will do great things with your life! haha!
.....Just carry on!>>>
I'm officially back in Kuching again!
For details of the mission trip i just came back from, please visit this link. I cannot type anything else anymore, my arms falling off....
I am grounded..... by myself..... there are simply far too many good dramas that i had missed because i cant catch it in school without internet connection. pretty lame, some might conclude, haha, but this is really my own brand of heroin (this is from twilight if u know what i mean)
sigh, so i am catching up with my all time favourite, Jiro, in his new production with rainie in ToGetHer~ very easy and light, comedic, lightening, really really romantic! and yeah, good catch!
in the serenity of my home sweet home...
i am, at the moment, full of fret and anxiety, i have a two week camp in johor from the 11th till the 26th... one week of workshop and one week of mission trip. i fret that my body couldn't take it, plus, i really dono how to prepare the attires, we cant wash our clothes for the 14-day trip... very very scary... and i dono anyone in my mission trip group... please keep me in your prayers guys, may i do only wat God is pleased with...
anyways, i uploaded plenty of pictures! so, just click my link at the side-bar and ta-da~
I do have certain expectations out of life.
Surreal. Yes. I know. Yet one can’t help feeling this way. You think this much of yourself, and suddenly you realize no one even care about any of that, even though you try to be exactly what it is supposed to be. Then you try harder. And then you come to understand that no matter how hard you try they still would not notice anything.
You just aren’t part of them. They smile at you. They talked to you about your classes and the weather. They waves. Yet they aren’t really talking to you.
It’s no longer about the opportunity and the gladness or the fulfillment of the heart. It’s when you finally realize that there isn’t anyone who understand you, let alone appreciate you.
Yes I do know that my Abba Father will understand and He will acknowledge my sorrow. It’s loud and clear. But, I still can’t help feeling discouraged that this group of people whom I love and adore and yearn for so much can’t spend one minute to understand and take notice of things around them. That makes me really sad. Yet their every word is what people will say is spiritual and well-meant and encouraging and whatsoever. But, how many of them are really saying all these from their heart? Aren’t they just saying it for the sake of saying it?
Dear Heavenly Abba, please help my heart to stop being bitter and find space for forgiveness. They did not see and realize that I was hurting. And maybe this is merely a process. Please forgive me for being so bitter and arrogant. It’s always their fault, them being wrong, theirs to blame. I never come to see any of my mistakes. Please be my constant reminder and teach me my part in this situation, because this sadness and disappointment is really overwhelming and I really tried my very best already and yet nothing work out.
I think each and everyone expected something. Little did I know that my way of thinking is actually pathetic and in every sense wrong and misplaced, it hurt?
Something you build yourself up with, something you make yourself out of. I tried my very best not to complain. Much to my own avail, I failed, relentlessly. I talked myself out of every possible situation for reconcile to work. I talked myself into letting the unfairness I felt to grow and grow untamed.
I am wrong, but I think they are very wrong too. No one should be left feeling that he is worthless and too much of an extra, no one should or have the right to do that. No one should be left aside feeling that he is not much of much, even, nothing of nothing.
It was depressing, I wasn’t so sure I could cope with it before talking to people I trust. This is a very big thing indeed. No one is too good or not good enough to serve God in His holy temple. No one should be casted aside from serving. Please do not be unfair and leave people crying at one corner. Not everyone is like that or that. God does not stereotype!
Is it really too much to ask?
My word, it was a real first!
A really real first!
Not a wink of sleep!
Not an hour, not thirty minutes, nothing!
It’s a different story if you intended on not sleeping to do something else, assignments, watching videos, reading etc. etc., that’s by far more acceptable.
I don’t like insomnia at all. Not a tiny puny little bit! And I have two exams in the morning and afternoon! And the afternoon exam is a killer subject, with all so many stuffs to understand and memorize.
Sigh, all’s well and ends well I guess.
Give thanks to the Lord!
I prayed that He guide my test the next day, regardless of the fact that I didn’t manage to sleep.
Don’t fear! Only believe! Mark 5: 36.
How true. Everything went smoothly under God’s guidance. Sigh…
Have a little faith in me. Have a little faith in me~ (wonder where I remembered this from? Was it a song? Nevermind.)
greetings, bloggers and fellow non-blogger ppl! i am officially back on track! the internet connection in utm, is, very very disgusting. i can only check my email sometimes, since most of the time it doesn't support facebook and blogger.
what's new? well, austin hills golf resort is a blast! din get to play golf thouh. but still, its great! especially so because we get to spend time with fellow first-years in our fellowship whom we are not half so closed to. its cool~
cant upload my pictures, so please bear with this official pictures from the website.
nothing much lately. its been quite a breeze. not so at home i presume. i got call from home everyday concerning my brother's university application. my my... i can still recall those worn-out and full-of-regrets and if-only-i-studied days...
i m loving this...
let's start from here.
giving up
why should i
have come too far to forget
beautiful
just got lost
somewhere along the way
so much was missing when you went away
let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
don't think to deep
all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
let's start from here
standing here
face to face
a finger on your lips
don't say a word
don't make a sound
silence around us now
even when you were gone I felt you everywhere
let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance don't think to deep
all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
let's start from here
let's start from here
I've never been the one to open up
but you've always been the voice within
the only one for my cold heart
let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
don't think to deep
and all those promises
let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance don't think to deep
all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
let's start from here
its 4 pm. i just finished lab. feeling: neutral. not excited, not tired, not overjoyed. plain. mundane. i don like this kind of life. so going to join aisec next semester.
catering is going to end soon too. kinda dreading to leave catering. haha, only a few know why. its stupid, but i am always, like, so inevitably put myself into that kind of emotion and situation. its just very typical me. i'm sure i'll get over it soon enough.
perspective is a big thing, really. i m still experimenting with the concept. the fact that how diff ppl at diff circumstances react to an identical situation can really amaze u...
holiday's coming...
i want broadband i want broadband i want broadband~ grrr~~
