QQ was a blast, better than i imagined! the plus sides, meeting old friends and making new ones... i am still depressed, things i need to overcome and get over with and learn, and things that are distracting me from enjoying myself, STOP ALREADY! you are really driving me crazy!
rev wan was in our team, shocker! but a total plus! there's just so much to learn and to take in. cameron is a lot like the weather of HangZhou in early spring, it's bright, but the wind's cold. liking it, and hating it at the same time. i have no idea why.
i am becoming spiteful. words i lashes out, things runnimg through my head, i think i need a permanent break, no short breaks for me, it aint gonna work u know.
i am trying to rely on God. it is difficult. i know God is patient, but i really need some more strength God, i don think i can put off with this. is this really what i wanted? i am still a child. i still need feeding. yet, i wan to be ready. i wan to be perfectly suitable and compatible already. is waiting the answer from You? i am still learning to identify your voice...
physical and mental breakdown is driving me to the edge. there's just far too much for me to take in!!!!
those images that have been haunting me when i am awake and when i am asleep, just leave me!!!
i am truly emotional lately, my mood swings playing tricks and i am out of control, so to avoid unnecessary unleashing from my behalf, just stay away!
most of the time i am glum, some other time i am over the moon. i wish i can do better. show my true emotions!
i don hate you, just in case you are wondering. i don dislike u either. it's just that sometimes i am far too used to the what-you-see-is-what-you-get attitude and expression and everyone's around. please don take it by heart. i really like you more than you can ever imagine. it is difficult for me too. mom...
so you know what, i'll just surrender. let God deal with this. i know where i am going. i just don know what you think. please give me some more signs, God, even though i don like myself doing this.
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Hi Sharon,
Don't be depressed, ok? Smile smile and Smile~ I know this is easy to say, hard to do.(T_T)But TRY~ Yeah try~
Try to think good old days. Try to think good things.
Hope u can post many good news or stories after this (don't try to make this place to express ur feeling too much, sedikit boleh lah~ Haha) or else I am very concern about U~ XP
All the best!
With Love,
WeiLing
hey, how are you?? Ok probably I dun have to ask this, u already wrote it all down.
I guess Sept is a very depress month for many of us. Im not doing well myself too. But lets be positive and looking forward to brighter days ahead!
God bless u.
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