Still with Job

i am still progressing very slowly in my personal journey of faith to finish reading the bible before i graduate. lately, something is bothering me. i am confused and reluctant to overcome the consistent flow of negative emotions that flood me atop over and over again. of course, i know, most of these emotions are self-enhanced and yet, i must admit that i have not reached the maturity i needed to deal with them so optimistically.

but, of course, this is not a very good excuse for neglecting the bible. i am still struggling with job. the lamenting from job, and then the scolding from his friends, and then more lamenting, more scoldings... dear Father, what do you wish for me to learn from all these? what am i to see from these? why now? why this time? is this Your will?

ah well, i actually pictured job to be in a poorer state, haha, but this one looks comical enough too.

well, sometimes i do feel like job. i would go like, is this really my fault? why on me? i don't think i am of wrong here. it is God who is putting this on me. or, this is the mean people working against me because i am just too good.

at times like this, i really wont need the three friends of job who scolded him. yes, they knew that he was wrong. and yes, well, as a friend, you do that. but. ah. at times like this, i would need jesus. He would be on my side, but He would also gently point out a way, gently reminding me of my shortcomings. That's God. my sole confidante.

i stumbled upon a fellow brother in Christ's blog and i am glad that God gives me all the bonuses by showering me with so much to create and to inspire and to be inspired. to be able to love and to learn and to embrace. sometimes, we are really taking things for granted.

learning to embrace differences and learning to embrace hardships and to embrace patience. blessed am i, my Lord!