And then God says: I asked you to push, but I didn't ask you to push it away, I am merely training your strength

so the rock is there for me to push. and push and push. it will not necessarily move. God did not attach a note saying: PUSH IT OUT OF THE WAY!

His only instructions were: Push.

so the tug-of-war of both sinew and sweat begins. without realizing it, i have wandered off the road. down the little alley. into the deserted path among the trees. down the zig-zag creek. down the miles and miles of tulip fields. down to the earth. wandered too far off. and turning back is not going to be easy but it will be necessary. there's no other way.

and so i say: i wan to embrace you! all my obligations and responsibilities and such. i love you all!

seek His will in all you do, then you won be lost.

i will find my way back following the bright bright light of God!