please pray

i getting tired of many things, wish i can go back to times where i m stil ignorant and din care bout anything happening around me. when i tot the only problem in my life is figuring out how to achieve academic excellence despite the fact that i m lazy and not so serious bout studying or stil manage to portray this oh so good image that ppl will like and say, oh why cant u be like XXX's daughter n stuffs.

then i realize trying your best to mind your own life and making sure ends meet just isn't enough. u don have to do anything wrong n its not enough for u to just stay off all the dangerous lanes. this is my pre-twenty-year-old experience. things will go wrong when they want to, things go their own way. its not up to us, not really.

i really hate it when third parties come up and mess up my world, causing trouble, causing distress n anxiety, its really really unacceptable, when it is really disturbing us more than we want it to be, and this is really not the first time something like this happens.

then, i'll go n think (involuntary action) what we are supposed to do, thinking all ways to overcome all kinds of harm tat may land on us for the doing of someone else, what they might do to us, how are we supposed to avoid them, how to come out unharmed....

what follows? anxiety beyond words, and distress, migraine, constipation, insomnia....

the situation is especially worse since the third party himself did not repent, did not realize that he is wrong, n tat this cannot continue, and how we despise him, and how ungrateful he is... i'm really really....

so i prayed tat God will save him, otherwise, all of us are doomed. our whole family, his family, people connected to us....

don ask what happened, but please pray that everything will be ok, and for the blind to see, for the lost to find and be found, and for the pain to be eased. pray to the Lord, for his salvation.